Im changing usernames... I've been here for too long. I want to start clean, upload my best pieces and be motivated to keep going. I've got mono, so I have spare time. I haven't got much energy though - I should be sleeping. Go see it if you want; the whole thing was inspired by the new DMB album.

yeah... i need an avatar next

It's hard to believe how much I watch my words
When looking back on how much has been said.
These days I'm usually much more stone cold,
Afraid to lift a finger too soon or to lay in the crossfire.
I learned what to expect because we're going in circles
And I've seen the world come and pass me by twofold.
To think I could have put myself on the line so easily
Scares me and warns me not to try it again.
I survived you once, twice and I'd be best to play it safe
I'll count my rewards from previous rounds and wait you out
It's your turn to love me back.

All these accidents
That happen
Follow the dot
Coincidence makes sense
Only with you
You don't have to speak
I feel
Emotional landscapes
They puzzle me
Then the riddle gets solved
And you push me up to this
State of emergency
How beautiful to be
State of emergency
Is where I want to be
All that no-one sees
You see
What's inside of me
Everywhere that hurts
You heal
Deep inside of me
You don't have to speak
I feel
Emotional landscapes
They puzzle me - confuse
Then the riddle gets solved
And you push me up to this
State of emergency
How beautiful to be
State of emergency
Is where I want to be

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How can it be
That I have become so accustomed
To the sidelines?
So many lies left me to rid
My head of the hurt
That I grew so numb to.
With a lyrical soul,
I sat thinking of you
And somehow fate let it come full circle
And now you're hurting too
It was never the same
For me
Even if I could pretend it was
I'm doing what I do best
I never thought I'd be doing this on my own
But Im wearing my tender heartbeat
Through the skin on my chest.
So even If I could put words to a song
I'd hum you the tune
Hoping you'd know it and hum along
But maybe it's all meant to be
That this game will never catch up to me
And if
It ever gets better than this
Pinch me
Wake me up
My lucid dreams are become reality
and I'm afraid of it.

Its when

you find yourself
clutching to some loose leaf,
your swinging hair catching on your nose,
you're not wearing socks inside your black sneakers
as you dash across the slushy potholes
On the corners of two streets
Up to your driveway,
where the christmas lights still flicker on
and off,
You're not wearing a scarf under your faux-fur jacket
when the orange glow from the houses
is nothing compared to the moon's casted blue shadows
silhouetting your every hurried step

that you realize
this february it feels more like march

and everything seems simple again